Tuesday, December 16, 2008

333 and 10 questions on 121608

this is my 333rd post. weird. how on earth did that happen? i dunno, i guess just showing up and sharing something every few days for a few years - i started this blog in january of 2007 - it works that way.
here's a favorite post from way back. i think my answers are still pretty much the same now.

James Lipton on "Inside the Actors Studio" asks each actor the following questions at the end of the show.
i'd love to know your answers to these ten questions. here are mine.

1. What is your favorite word?
my favorite word is yes. the word that goes with it is no. they belong together.
2. What is your least favorite word?
my least favorite word is "need." as in, "i need this from you," which i'm learning is really about not having clarity about what i want. so, when people say to me, "i need this," i try to listen to what they are telling me they want. and when people say to me, "you need to do this," i try to listen to why i can't stand it to hear that ... and then be present with them while they tell me what they want.
3. What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
courage. c s lewis says that every virtue when it's at its deepest place, is courage. love is courage. integrity is courage. compassion is courage.
i'm not always courageous. but i am learning to be.
4. What turns you off?
arrogance - which is just about fear.
5. What is your favorite curse word?
"shit." it's a great all-purpose word. i don't even stop myself from saying it. except on sunday mornings at journey, and that's a struggle.
6. What sound or noise do you love?
quiet - especially in nature. which isn't quiet, but it's not human sounds. i like the quiet when the journeyers are breathing when we're gathering ourselves and our hearts together. i like the quiet when my family or a child are sleeping.
and i love laughter. oh, wait, that's two sounds.
7. What sound or noise do you hate?
i used to hate crying - which was just about my own fear of opening up and feeling anything unpleasant. plus, growing up was very sucky and had a lot of crying in it, and i wanted to distance myself from that sound because of what it reminded me of.
now i believe in crying, my own and other people's, even though it's not always comfortable for me. but it's worth it.
the sound or noise i hate is the tape in my head that tells me "you can't do this."
i also believe that that tape in my head is worthy of listening to. but not listening to.
8. What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
9. What profession would you not like to do?
corporate lawyer, or anything having to do with screwing over the little person.
10. If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
a. god exists.
b. i don't believe that there are pearly gates - they're a metaphor. but it's a nice image. the metaphor i like better is "the arms that love extends."
c. what i want god to say is, "yes."
i actually believe that god will say "yes" to me ... and to every being that has been in this earthly experience. and that doesn't have anything to do with "who goes to heaven." i don't give a shit. it's not about that for me.


Laurel said...

It's funny the words, the way things are expressed, or even the associations with a profession that either gets up our ire or reinforces our sense of self. You mentioned arrogance. I hate arrogance too and its something I can pick up "a mile a way". It's also something I will negatively react to....the thing I'm learning to do lately is not excuse the behavior but still love the person in a universal sense, all the while reminding myself of what that person does well...something unique or special within that person. It's a hard balance.

Anonymous said...

I really like "shit" too. It has a universal applicability - things can look like it, smell like it, taste like it, sound like it, feel like it; it can be bad or good; the source amplifies the meaning in expressive variations whether it be bull, horse, or whatever; likewise the meaning survives whether full of it or just a piece of it; rising out of its rather earthy lineage, it can even be holy. It is not violent nor threatening, like many of its profane relatives. If it is offensive, it's because that is what it is. Finally, if you are an old hippie like me, you remember when you could even smoke it.

I agree that it's use should be curtailed somewhat on Sunday at Journey, although I'm confident that God understands when we pray for help feeling like it, in the middle of it, taking it, giving it, or wondering what to do about all of it... or when we get the message that God's message is truth and none of it...

Rick Diamond said...

dude, yep, i do believe god understands ....

Anonymous said...

Consider: Over the course of history, which profession do you think has screwed over more little people - lawyers or preachers?
Heh heh heh.
Party on,
Lawyer Delagarza

Rick Diamond said...

yo yo lawyer delagarza
i actually believe, honestly, that both lawyers and preachers, because their roles in the lives of individuals and larger societal systems, have powerful influence and do more than they realize and more than any of us realize in shaping the way people feel about themselves and about life in general.
in that sense, both professions are actually too powerful to be left unchecked. i'm not sure either has sufficient checks and balances. i see lots of train wrecks in both systems.
having said that, i also know that both law and religion make life much more meaningful and workable for millions of people every day. and there are good, compassionate pastors and lawyers, doing their work, trying to do the right thing.

having said that, i'd say the preachers are the ones who have screwed over more people. they have larger audiences pulled together at a time. and while the law can pull the money card and the america card and the penal system card, religion can pull the money card and the culture card and the heaven/hell/god card and that trumps everything.
or, it used to.
come on, postmodernity! yippee!!